Shouting voices

There are many voices shouting to be heard
I am only one

I do not have the energy to shout loud enough or long enough

I am tired

I am overwhelmed

There are so many voices shouting to be heard

I am only one

My story is quite similar to many stories I have read

I do not think my story is anything different, special or unique

so I think, why bother?

yet I feel a need to share my story,

yet it is not that different or unique

There are many shouting voices
hoping to be heard

I cannot keep up with it

I cannot shout loud enough

I do not have the energy

I do not have the spoons

My internal voice is hoarse

I want to share my story

others encourage me to share

I feel joy at times

I feel overwhelmed and sad at others

but also pressure,

pressure to share

pressure to keep up

pressure to shout loud enough

There are too many shouting voices

fighting to be heard

I cannot shout loud enough

I do not have the energy

I do not have the spoons

I will continue to share my story
when and where I can

I will not shout to be heard above the many voices

I will not try to make myself heard

I will only speak in my strong yet shaky voice

as I write my story out

and hope that some may hear me

above the roar of voices

Kerrilynn Harris (c) 2014